I am aware but I
discard the fact
that I know so well
how I should react

I sold my personal possessions
To pay your unmanageable debts
Paying for your lively past
And your sodden regrets

I pawned my dignity
To salvage yours
I stayed home while you out drunk
With a list of your undone chores

The washing machine is mine, since you
Caught your finger in that red button
Knees collapsing no matter what
For you always wet glutton

I washed your plates
To keep your hands dry
I didn’t ask painful questions
Carried on wondering why

With an evening came the back rubs
And touching of your toes
While away staying at the end of the
Phone with your monotonous woes

I for you I was beautiful with treatments
And underwear as you desire
By night doing anything you want
and endlessly require

Let you beat my body
Black and blue
I stay only when you spit
I love you

I know I’ve had enough
And that it’s time to run
You’ve already destroyed another
I won’t be another one

Now fuck off, don’t ask
Of me another thing;
But then if you need me,
I’ll give you everything.